Joy and Sadness

Darkness surrounds,
even though I am engulfed in light.
Surrounded by joy and praise,
a sadness penetrates my soul.
For leaving what I've recently found,
and going back to where I am,
is too much for my soul to bear.
I have found community,
which I have been yearning for.
The broken image of community,
has slowly begun to repair itself.
I realized how much I have miss,
this sense of belonging that I feel.
Yet, this place is not for me,
for God has called me elsewhere.
Lord God,
ease the sadness in my heart,
lead me to the community you have prepared for me,
and back into your arms again.