Fallen

How did I get into this rut?
It started out simple, life was going just fine
and suddenly here I am,
in a hole of my own making.
What did I lose sight of along the way?
How did I get distracted from the path I must take?
Everything is jumbled and it does not make sense.
When did this feeling take over me?

God, I know you are near,
and waiting on me,
to get my act back together,
so You can continue to set me free.
Why am I stuck in such cycles,
where things go up and down all the time?
God, I feel enslaved by everything around me,
freedom seems nothing more than just a dream.
How far must I fall before I can finally learn to look up
and see the beauty of the sky above,
To see Your work in all there is,
and grasp the hand of love held out to me?

God, here I am
in the depth of this hole I have created.
Hear my cry, for my heart yearns to be free,
of these chains which continue to bind me.
The memories of your love grow dim,
as darkness surrounds me.
Yet in the midst of darkness,
I hold my gaze on a tiny beam of light,
splitting the darkness to remind me of your presence.

Oh, God,
Hear the wailing of my heart,
crying out for your love.
I am broken and enslaved,
in this pit I'm in.
You are the only one who
can lift me up,
and make me whole once again.
Lord, do not delay,
for my strength fades by the day.