What have I been doing, feeling my way around in the dark?
When did I lose hold of your guiding light?
I'm so sick and tired of groping about alone,
for I cannot see through the darkness around me.
Why can't I get things right?
Why do I keep letting myself stumble in the dark?
My faith and hope stays strong,
while my body chooses to go its own way.
I'm tired of this darkness,
the chains which bind my soul.
I long to be free of this,
yet cannot do it on my own.
The taste of freedom you have given me,
lingers in my dry mouth,
as I call out your name from the midst of shadows.
For you are the only one who can rescue me from myself.
I hear a voice calling out my name in the distance
and as I turn in that direction, am blinded,
by the radiance of the rising Son,
and I know once again,
A new beginning awaits me.
Birthdays, far from home
14 years ago