捧げます (I will offer)

主よ、
今まで自分勝手なことを、
繰り返して生きて来た。
あなたの祝福を忘れ、
自分だけを信じ、
先に進んだ。
何回も自分のおろかさに気付いても
何回もつまずいても、
自分で進もうとした。

でも、もうそうゆう生き方はごめんだ。
だって、心の底が空っぽで、
生きてる感覚が全くない。
今までの過ちに気付いたから、
あなたの御座の下に、
身を寄せて、
許しを求め祈り続け、
私の全てを
そこで私の主に捧げます。

Oh Lord,
Until now, I have lived life,
repeating selfish things.
I have forgotten your blessings,
and walked forward believing only in myself.
No matter how many times,
I realized my own foolishness,
or how many times I've stumbled,
I've tried to move forward on my own.

But, I've had enough of living this way,
because the depths of my heart is empty,
and devoid of the sense of life.
Because I have realized the mistakes I have made,
I draw near to the foot of your throne,
and seek forgiveness through continual prayer,
and from where I am,
I offer the entirety of my who I am,
to My Lord.

Soul's Resolve

From the depth of my soul,
I come before,
the One who created me.
To bow before,
the savior of my soul,
to surrender all these things.
The life that you have given me,
Your blessings and my gifts.
My dreams of what is to come,
my passions and my joy.
The people in my life,
my heart and my love.
The struggles that I face everyday,
my scars and my pain.
The memories of my past,
the ups and the downs.
I lay all of these down,
at the foot of the cross
of the One who bore my sin.
To let Him know,
my soul's resolve
to surrender all to Him.

Restlessness

Restlessness invades,
and I feel like I'm drifting,
through an endless maze.
My heart searches,
for meaning in this world,
yet is unable to find,
what its looking for.
My soul yearns to be free,
on the dead feeling inside.

How I long to feel,
the burning of life and passion,
and the joy of purpose and meaning.
Yet I search for these,
in all the wrong places,
instead of surrendering them all
to the One who created me.