Apology

God,
I am sorry, Lord.
For once again, I've turned from you.
Why do I let myself get distracted,
to dwell with the things of this world?
My time with you gives me such joy and peace,
yet I trade it for disappearing pleasure.
Why can't I just focus on you?
My heart's desire is to be close to you,
but my nature within keeps struggling to win.

God,
you are more than I could ever comprehend,
yet I try to fit you into my box of limited understanding.
I try to shrink you, in order to feel like I can control you,
all the while, struggling to make sense,
of the war raging inside of me,
between my sinful nature and who you have created me to be.

O God,
you have given me deliverance,
and broken my chains,
yet I find myself putting them back on,
even when I don't want them to be.

God,
I'm sorry,
for this is not what I want to be.

God,
grant my heart, peace, so I can rest in you.
grant my soul, joy, so I can rejoice with your creation.
grant me your love, so other may see Your love,
grant me strength, so my life can be built on the Rock that remains